Why so difficult!!

Ten days until the wedding. I am freaking. Not even because of the wedding, per se.

I am stressed about:

• crappy job
• lack of money
• lack of money making me unable to quit crappy job
• starting to look for new (hopefully not crappy) job
• fatness - I should have been motivated to do something about it- it's my wedding, for crap's sake!!
• fatness - I'm afraid people will think it's a shotgun wedding because of the Buddha Belly
• fatness - I'm so stressed by it that it gets 3 entries!
• lack of exercise
• lack of will to exercise
• can't eat gluten
• can't eat dairy
• want dairy
• may be getting gluten even though I'm trying not to
• don't know whether to get refill on antidepressants
• waiting to see whether quitting gluten and dairy will someday cause me to not need antidepressants
• stomach won't cooperate and behave itself
• my nails look like crap
• my hair looks like crap
• fear of coloring my hair, when I've never had that fear before- see below
• afraid all wedding photos will look like crap ("bridal glow" only goes so far)
• the violent mood swings that are accompanying all of this fun!

Plus, I've gotten myself jacked up on too much coffee and not enough breakfast. I'm like an uber-angry Cornholio.